29 Weeks & Bleeeeding!

Yes! I wasn't kidding ok? it happened last Thursday, second day of puasa and we're about to have our sahur that 4.30 a.m...(konon nak makan extra bubur lambuk yang Mak bagi utk sahur tu...tp tak sempat! huhu) before nak turun sahur tu, macam biasa, pergi toilet dulu...masa nak flush, tiba-tiba, ada titisan2 darah...and i saw the color in the toilet bowl cam funny, so i was abit cuak, so ter jerit sikit la. i didn't know Helmi heard it, so i stayed in the toilet for a few minutes, like wondering...what did i ate? OMG OMG...is this 'the moment'?? i was counting again and again and i was pretty sure i was only 29 weeks of preggie, so i just stand there and stunned. dalam hati, cuakkk gile ok? rasa nak nangis pun ada, confused pun ada, cause darah still menitik-nitik masa tu...so i was like calling for him...."Awak...." from the tone of my voice i'm sure he knew something was not right...he came in the bathroom, saw few drops of blood on the floor, and also, was stunned, then he just said that we should go to the hospital, just to be sure what was really happened.

(funny story: Suamiku kan "Kalut". Before gerak, i was already waiting for him inside the car, then after he locked the door, i saw he was like jalan kelam-kabut dengan nappy bag yang kitorg baru je beli last weekend and letak kat seat belakang! The funny thing is, dalam nappy bag tu, sebenarnya tak letak apa2 pun lagi. baru plan nak letak baby clothes, blanket, napkin etc for the labour time nanti...tapi, TAK letak pun lagi...sebab tak sempat since napkin & baju2 baby semua baru basuh.. Yang betul2 ada dalam nappy bag tu adalah, few of my underwears yang disumbat2 ke dalam poket2 bag tu, and mineral bottle yang half empty sebab kononnya nak shape kan bag tu cause masa beli, bag tu berlipat2 and keromot2 lagi..hahaha masa tu tempted gile nak gelak cause the fact yang dengan serious nya, dia membawa nappy bag yang kosong ke hospital! LOL..tp since tgh risau, masa tu, senyum je laa...hahaha )

on the way to DEMC, both of us remain silent. then I called my sister, and my mother, just to check whether this thing is normal. so they agreed that we should ask the doctor about it. my mother then thought i was already in labour, cause for that moment, she said, tah2 elly salah kira last period bila kot! demit! sangat lah tak ok! Masa kat ER, doktor said not to worry, and he gave me ubat kuatkan rahim and 2 days m.c. cause he said, everything seems fine, and all i need is a good rest. so after Helmi had his sahur at DEMC, we went back home and planned to see gynea in the morning to have a check on the baby. That morning, the gynea, Dr.Zamri said, the baby is fine & healthy and has nothing to do with the bleeding. it was the placenta @ uri! Dr.Zamri cakap, uri dah almost kat bawah, and as it was moving, few geseran je boleh caused that bleeding. sigh...so he wants me to continue the previous ubat, and i make my decision not to puasa since, you know, macam period la jugak...dah lama tak period, rasa awkward je... :( but the bleeding stops on the 2nd day. so now, dah dua hari tak puasa! bye bye to puasa penuh 2010! huhu

although everything seems ok, still, sometimes bila fikir2 balik, rasa risau je...yela, we did everything we could, tapi, kalau dah jadi, tatau kan...semua kuasa Dia..."kun fa ya kun" semoga Allah kuatkan baby dalam perut ni...amin....ohh Mommy dan Abah nya sekali....amin.... :)

Dear baby,

your lovely auntie Shara made me buy allll these for you...she bought it in London and i got it for...alaa...tak payah tahu laa ekk...hehe what i hope and pray is that, you'll be able to wear it later ok? i hope to see you in another 7 weeks (at least!) keep swimming in my belly...jgn duduk diam2 tau! nanti, i'll miss you... :) be strong baby boy emi!

Love and Pray, Mommy ELissa